At a crossroads...

Well, the school year has officially started here in town, which means that the library will now be relatively kid-free for a majority of the day. It also means that my other job as substitute teacher's aide has begun again.

And I'm not sure if I want to keep it up.

On the one hand, I like being around kids especially preschool aged ones. People say I'm good with them. I did have fun on most of my subbing jobs last year. Plus it was something to do other than sit at home when I wasn't working at the library.

On the other hand, I'm not sure it's really worth it anymore. Waking up at 6 every morning listening for the phone to ring to know whether or not I have to go in and sometimes only getting one subbing job a month for a paycheck that barely scrapes $50? I may only work about six days out of the month at the library, give or take when I'm covering someone else's shift or Pen asks me to work another day, but those are steady hours. And I'm also hoping that Pen will offer me the chance to work more hours again (and this time I'll take 'em!).

So I don't know what to do. I'm seriously considering dropping the substitute aiding thing, but I can't get the thought out of my head that if I do so, my mother's going to be disappointed in me.

At a crossroads...

Well, the school year has officially started here in town, which means that the library will now be relatively kid-free for a majority of the day. It also means that my other job as substitute teacher's aide has begun again.

And I'm not sure if I want to keep it up.

On the one hand, I like being around kids especially preschool aged ones. People say I'm good with them. I did have fun on most of my subbing jobs last year. Plus it was something to do other than sit at home when I wasn't working at the library.

On the other hand, I'm not sure it's really worth it anymore. Waking up at 6 every morning listening for the phone to ring to know whether or not I have to go in and sometimes only getting one subbing job a month for a paycheck that barely scrapes $50? I may only work about six days out of the month at the library, give or take when I'm covering someone else's shift or Pen asks me to work another day, but those are steady hours. And I'm also hoping that Pen will offer me the chance to work more hours again (and this time I'll take 'em!).

So I don't know what to do. I'm seriously considering dropping the substitute aiding thing, but I can't get the thought out of my head that if I do so, my mother's going to be disappointed in me.