ladyiapetus: (Sassy Sweetheart)
In 1995, Mom approached our family with a proposition about adding a second cat to our household. The cat in question had been returned to the local pet store by her original owners because they'd had a baby, and because this cat liked to snuggle at night they were afraid that she'd try to snuggle with the baby and smother it. We said yes, and Mom brought home this beautiful six-month old female black cat. Her original owners had called her "Midnight", but we quickly renamed her "Sassy".



Last night, Mom, Dad and I took Sassy to the vet for the final time.


God, I am such a wreck right now I can't stand it. Mom and I had given her subcutaneous fluids over the past year to battle renal failure, and towards the end she was so thin and in so much pain. I know we did the right thing for her, but underneath all of that I just want my kitty back.

She was my kitty; Mom and Dad may have been her owners on paper but when it all came down to it she was mine. For reasons I don't understand I was Sassy's favorite. During the last few years of her life she moved upstairs permanently because she hated the dog, and when I was upstairs Sassy had to be with me no matter where I was.

And now she's gone. She's lying in a box in the garage with some of her favorite toys, until we bury her on Sunday. Every time I see something dark or black out of the corner of my eye and I turn around I have to remind myself that it's not her. And today I'm supposed to dump out her litterbox, her food and her water, and take the rug and everything out of her kennel so that Mom and Dad can take that down either today or tomorrow. And it just pisses me off because she hasn't even been gone a full day and it seems like they're erasing every piece of her, every evidence that she'd ever lived here at all and it hurts so damn much!

I just want my kitty back, that's all. I just want her back.
ladyiapetus: (Sassy Sweetheart)
In 1995, Mom approached our family with a proposition about adding a second cat to our household. The cat in question had been returned to the local pet store by her original owners because they'd had a baby, and because this cat liked to snuggle at night they were afraid that she'd try to snuggle with the baby and smother it. We said yes, and Mom brought home this beautiful six-month old female black cat. Her original owners had called her "Midnight", but we quickly renamed her "Sassy".



Last night, Mom, Dad and I took Sassy to the vet for the final time.


God, I am such a wreck right now I can't stand it. Mom and I had given her subcutaneous fluids over the past year to battle renal failure, and towards the end she was so thin and in so much pain. I know we did the right thing for her, but underneath all of that I just want my kitty back.

She was my kitty; Mom and Dad may have been her owners on paper but when it all came down to it she was mine. For reasons I don't understand I was Sassy's favorite. During the last few years of her life she moved upstairs permanently because she hated the dog, and when I was upstairs Sassy had to be with me no matter where I was.

And now she's gone. She's lying in a box in the garage with some of her favorite toys, until we bury her on Sunday. Every time I see something dark or black out of the corner of my eye and I turn around I have to remind myself that it's not her. And today I'm supposed to dump out her litterbox, her food and her water, and take the rug and everything out of her kennel so that Mom and Dad can take that down either today or tomorrow. And it just pisses me off because she hasn't even been gone a full day and it seems like they're erasing every piece of her, every evidence that she'd ever lived here at all and it hurts so damn much!

I just want my kitty back, that's all. I just want her back.
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Night-night, Toey-Bug.
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Night-night, Toey-Bug.

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